What is all this...

For the first time in months I have come back to self doubting myself and giving up (well not quite yet) on everything that I ever hold close to me, family, friends, lovers, design...


After starting this Internship it's made me learn alot about myself that 1) I maybe not get on with others as I think...and 2) I always say the wrong thing.
After working by myself for years maybe I'm just finding it hard to try and break out of my comfort zone box and adapt to designs and writing the way I NEED to rather then the way I WANT to, it is only day four, hopefully I will grow and learn and love my time I have left there. Still praying to God that they keep me on and give me a full time placement as the thought of going back to nights and working weekends constantly after having time at somewhere I love doing will shatter everything...But, it is an amazing experience and it is just what I need to learn more things and take it as whatever happens happens.

It has made me become OBSESSED with fashion, not that I wasn't already but even more so now it's ridiculous, every blog, website, livejournal, facebook site I've been on I've just been memorized by fashion photography and the art form of it all, so much that I wish I was 18 again and just starting out deciding what I want to do!




http://www.flickr.com/photos/thegirlwhotamedthetiger/

If I wasn't so tired I'd post more, but LOVE!

You could be my lucky star, shine on me wherever you're...

I think I have come to the decision to do a bit of travelling maybe late next year? I'm almost certain I want to at least get to one of my three top locations next year them being Japan, Sweden and Barcelona.

As of yet I don't know what's going to happen in my life, so many exciting things have happened already that I feel really truly blessed to have such good connections within the business that I am passionate about and enjoy doing.

Hopefully with this work experience it will lead to a proper full time paid job, if it doesn't then at least I've had the opportunity to add a fantastic company to my work experience and hopefully it will give me alot more confidence and added skills within my work.

I feel very blessed right now.



Favourite songs at the moment.







Not the original video but I think it's alot better and more interesting then the foetus even though the foetus is very clever.






Favourite websites at the moment:

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/welcometothefold.wordpress.com/
Used to go to University with Martin and he has teamed up with a few other lads to bring this blog, covers art, fashion, photography and opinions me likey.


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/mashable.com
Geek out.
Hours of entertainment and learning facilities.
B R I L L I A N T

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/weloveyouso.com
'In October 2009 Spike Jonze’s feature film rendition of Maurice Sendak’s classic story Where The Wild Things Are will hit movie theaters worldwide.

The film represents years of work from hundreds of different artists, writers, photographers, musicians, actors, and creators of all degrees.

This place has been established to help shed some light on many of the small influences that have converged to make this massive project a reality.'
I love it, I've been on this for hours today checking out all the other random websites of art and photography on there, really inspiring!

I've never seen Twilight I might surface into the cool world and watch it.
It's supposed to be amazing but people said that about 'Sweeney Todd' and as much as I did enjoy that it was too overated and it was obvious hot it was going to end.

My Puppy is next to me lying on his back with his little face sleeping gently, oh to sleep all day would be faboulous.

Interview tomorrow for scsmarketing.co.uk nervous but excited :) wish me luck!

I was supposed to...

dedicate my day to cleaning, packing, prepping, sourcing and filing but instead I have spent most of it in bed feeling dreadful and going on various, art and designs sites feeling inspired and possibly quite jealous of work and wonders that I've seen.

I went to sign up to the doctor yesterday (haven't been registered with one since I left Southampton!) and they want a utility bill and a passport photo, why? why? why? All I want is some pills to make me feel better and clear up my skin for fuck sake.

The receptionist was really rude too, I walked in and she just gave me evils and then laughed at me when I said I was returning back from University and needed a doctor? What's your problem?? Just 'cause you sit on your ass all day, taking calls from sick people and whining about your family doesn't mean you can't smile and be nice to some babe that walks into the surgery. I really just don't get rude people, people who look at another like shit and are just generally assholes. When I go for my appointments I might be just as rude back, unfortunately this is just not possible for me as I am way too polite and nice for my own good!

Anyways...Some images, links and people that have made me :), lol and :| today.



Me and my buddies having fun.


I think this is genius, so simple, so strong, so good.
Buy it here.


Mental, sadly the comments underneath this post state that the position was filled in May and that this is 'old news'


Hmmmmmmmmmm


Amazinnnnnnnnnnnnnng, 215 £££!


R.I.P



I feel like such an idiot, in my previous post I posted some photographs from an amazing guy that I learnt about in college, Dash Snow only to recently look on his wikipedia to scan some more information about him, whereabouts, new material etc to find that he died on July 13th of this year due to a suspected drug overdose. Such a waste of an amazing and inspiring talented artist.

Baby, That's just me...

Not much to say except I have finally, almost, nearly, finished creating, designing, making, colour coding, filing and deciding my website! /birdsflew.co.uk have a look and let me know what you think. thank you.

job interview on friday for a marketing company doing some web based work for them.

still poor as fuck, pay day and it gets rinsed, the bank stole 50?!?! owed parents, sisters, lovers. fuck.

went to london yesterday to see one of my best friend do the 5k run for the alhzeimers charity, shame we missed her from the starting line to the finishing line as me and her boyfriend were too busy trying to search for cigarettes, see her at the end though and congratulated her, she did it in 38 minutes which is amazing i'm so proud of her. i even shredded a little tear when we were waiting to try and catch her run by us. i saw a t-shirt that had 'in loving memory of liam' was something to do with a baby charity, so sad! so rewarding! and so loving! if i was fit enough i'd do it myself for the 'mind' charity.








/www.tinyvices.com/dash_snow
amazing, reminds me of Terry Richardson's work but more raw and compelling.



1. keep your eyes open! even if you’re in a relationship, be aware of who’s around you and what your options are. don’t live your life asleep at the wheel. I’m NOT saying you should cheat. not at all. just pay attention to the people who are attracted to you and friendships or relationships you could have. you are never trapped and it’s important to know you have options and are desirable.

2. how about you answer your FUCKING phone? I KNOW you can see your phone. i KNOW you know it’s me. I mean, you’re constantly checking it when we’re TOGETHER. i guess you just don’t wanna talk to me. and that’s FINE. as long as YOU’RE fine with the fact that YOU’RE DEAD TO ME. unless you’re busy working, then i totally get it and it’s fine. just call me back. xo

3. it’s ‘Asian’ when referring to people and ‘oriental’ when referring to objects you racist jerk!

4. don’t talk back to your boyfriend in public. It just looks ugly. it’s also an instant hard off and clitoral downer. Unless the dude is dangerous or threatening your life, keep it together, remain composed, PLUS you can always walk away. I love you.

5. one on one hangouts are much scarier than three people hanging out. i wish this wasn’t true, but it is.

6. go shopping alone. the chitty chatty banter causes you to use the clothing, or whatever merchandise you’re shopping for, to serve as a defense or distraction- and impulse buys are much more likely to occur. it’s YOUR wallet, but I’m warning you.

7. when real shit is happening, it’s time to drop the snarky front/facade and be a good person. call your friend back. forget the fight, or the petty differences the two of you have. in a perfect world, people would ALWAYS act the way they do after riots or an earthquake. they push the bullshit aside. if a friends/enemies/or acquaintances mom or dad dies, call them/visit them- even if you have NO IDEA what to say. bring flowers and martinelli’s apple cider. if you don’t like a person cuz you thinks they’re a nerd or a dork and it would hurt your cool to be seen with them, or they just get on your nerves- that’s FINE during the superficial rigmarole of the day to day…but if this said ‘dork’ was hurting (emotionally or physically) and needed someone to talk to, would you be able to drop the shit and be there? even though it’s not your ’job’?

8. going to target will ALWAYS make you happy.

9. there’s a difference between a vaginal ‘yeast’ infection and a ‘bacterial’ infection. know your body. don’t make assumptions. and for the love of god, see a gynecologist!

10. the next time a homeless person asks you for change (especially if he/she is wearing a better outfit than you) you could either give them some money OR do what I do and shout: “what do you expect me to do, give you my debit card? i don’t have any change! get a job you cardboard holding creep.” just giving you options. xo
Absolutely obsessed with her at the moment, I check her blog every day I think she's funny, intelligent, cute and bad ass which in my books= perfect!
/imboycrazy.com/