Sunday, August 21, 2011

Pretty busy lady.

So, since I last updated I have gone to London numerous times for Lovebox, Wireless and general activities. Brighton a few times for hang outs, meetings etc. I have also completed the street art summer competition for Don't Panic and successfully carried out the Playgroup Festival project - lovely.

This weekend has been my favourite of them all though, I finally got to see my best friend from University after 3 years. Tears happened and the general 'Oh my god, I can't believe we are here with each other again, i love you" happened a lot...It's so strange to have that feeling of nothing but utter love for someone, someone that I can trust with my life and that if he was pissing me off I can sort him out and vice versa...I don't think there's every really been someone so amazing in my life. We've made a pact to not let it be another 3 years until we see each other...When he left to go home, we cried. So pathetic but hey! That's love for you.

I ended up in Swindon's Great Western Hospital yesterday with Lailah who had unfortunately been stung by a wasp and had to have adrenaline pumped into her and she went into an aphaletic shock, which was super scary but she turned out okay. If we hadn't of called an Ambulance she probably would have died which is insane! Glad little LaLa is okay.


Summer Strawberries.


Batcave at Longleat.


Models Own 'Sophies Pink' and Flying A's glitter.


Sunset.


Dinosaurs in Brighton.





LaLa in Hospital.




Deer at Longleat.


Lovebox.


Snacks on the way to Lovebox.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I know who I am, but who are you?



I've been re-reading The Bell Jar recently whether that's a good idea or not I'm not sure. I first read it when Gwen Stefani said she quoted it in some of the songs on Return Of Saturn (Loser I know!) also, shortly after finding this out I found out that the words Wiona Ryder writes in her diary in Girl Interupted is also from the book.

Here are some of my favourite quotes from the book:


The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence. ~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar


I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet. ~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 7



If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days. ~Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 8

There is something demoralizing about watching two people get more and more crazy about each other, especially when you are the extra person in the room."
- Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 2


The sickness rolled through me in great waves. After each wave it would fade away and leave me limp as a wet leaf and shivering all over and then I would feel it rising up in me again, and the glittering white torture chamber tiles under my feet and over my head and all four sides closed in and squeezed me to pieces.
- Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 4

I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery—air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, 'This is what it is to be happy.'"
- Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar, Chapter 8

After reading these you will probably assume that I am in some shiverled mess about my life but to be honest I couldn't be happier right now. A few heart pangs are occuring and I'm trying to figure out if that is because I really care or if it's because, actually in reality I am a cold hearted bitch...

I remember writing all my stories about my life on livejournal - something that I'm very happy that I did do, I think it's important to write down your life, your passion, your fashion! As I become a touch typer aged 13 I felt that doing this online was the best way as writing it in a journal wasn't as easy for me as I couldn't allow myself to write as fast as my brain was thinking...I do wonder sometimes that life is just full of rules and if I say something that I strongly believe in I'm deemed a bitch...But I'm I? Least I'm honest...Ho hum!




In other news, I am doing a competition with Channel 4 and Don't Panic you can check it out here. Some really nice stuff is coming through and hopefully it's been sent off to the write people for some decent coverage. If you'd like more information please contact me on stephanie@dontpaniconline.com




In other other news, I'm completely in love with the idea of three of my best friends and I going to Longleat! HELLO little animals xxx and stately home and three of the best people in my life HELLO!!!

I LOVE this song and No Doubt are releasing an album real soon and I might piss myself when I go and see them because I am THAT excited...It would make my life for realz

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Life Oh Life

I have had the best few weeks ever - meeting amazing people, seeing more amazing people and in general pretty high times. Here's some photos from my past few weeks:












I am currently getting myself involved in a project with Don't Panic for Channel 4 a Street Style competition which I feel will be super fun!

Even though spending a lot of time on the internet is my job (and I LOVE it) I feel it's time for me to spend some time away so I am making some big plans to save and go and spend some time with my friend Spasia in New York as well as getting to some other places to see some amazing sights. Let's think about it I'm 25 next year, I haven't been on holiday since 2001 and my current internet (work) obsession is becoming wildly un-healthy. This all sparked when I met a few bloggers in London a couple of weeks back...Why I'm I spending so much time online exchanging links, knowledge, friendships when I can go and hang out with them...Ehhhhh? Good times are a coming and I'm very excited.

Next few weeks are going to be exciting too as I get to spend time with my sister at Wireless and Lovebox and some little exciting projects to further my life. I do hope by the time I'm 25 I've progressed a little further...It is totally time to play as hard as I work, life is literally what you make it and you have to protect, love and cherish yourself as well as everyone you love in it.

Random shiz this week:





Thursday, June 09, 2011

Quotes

Since I can rememember I've always loved reading, quoting, remembering my life in some kind of documentated way, diary, livejournal, scraps bits of paper, notepads...Here are some of my favourite quotes...

"Be peaceful, be courteous, obey the law, respect everyone; but if someone puts his hand on you, send him to the cemetery"- Malcolm X

"Immediately after saying this, Royal realised that it was true"- Narrator, The Royal Tenenbaums.

"You had to do someone else, You should of been by yourself, Instead of here with me."-Skunk Anansie-Secretly.

"And when I looked at the page infront of me I realised, This was my life" - Gwen Stefani, No Doubt, Storytellers.

"3 I foretold the former things long ago,
my mouth announced them and I made them known;
then suddenly I acted, and they came to pass.

4 For I knew how stubborn you were;
the sinews of your neck were iron,
your forehead was bronze.

5 Therefore I told you these things long ago;
before they happened I announced them to you
so that you could not say,
'My idols did them;
my wooden image and metal god ordained them.'

6 You have heard these things; look at them all.
Will you not admit them?
"From now on I will tell you of new things,
of hidden things unknown to you.

7 They are created now, and not long ago;
you have not heard of them before today.
So you cannot say,
'Yes, I knew of them.'

8 You have neither heard nor understood;
from of old your ear has not been open.
Well do I know how treacherous you are;
you were called a rebel from birth.

9 For my own name's sake I delay my wrath;
for the sake of my praise I hold it back from you,
so as not to cut you off.

10 See, I have refined you, though not as silver;
I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.

11 For my own sake, for my own sake, I do this.
How can I let myself be defamed?
I will not yield my glory to another."
The Bible, Isaiah, Chapter 48.


What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain
Under my head till morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and listen for reply,
And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain
For unremembered lads that not again
Will turn to me at midnight with a cry.

Thus in winter stands the lonely tree,
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,
Yet knows its boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what loves have come and gone,
I only know that summer sang in me
A little while, that in me sings no more.

-- Edna St. Vincent Millay

I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see.- Alice in Wonderland.



"Life is a fleeting moment in the grand scheme of time. Memories fade, relationships dissolve, and our control on life slips away. Few things, if anything, remain constant."

...
"We favor the simple expression of the complex thought.
We are for the large shape, because it has the impact of the unequivocal.

We are for flat forms because they destroy illusion and reveal truth.

The artist was attempting to make art more than something to just look at,
they wanted it something to be involved in, something too big to ignore.

It is our function as artists to make the spectator to see the world our way,
not his way." - Le Tigre

Sunday, May 01, 2011

What you waiting for?

Past few weeks have been MAD I'm kind of in a love hate relationship with work at the moment - I completely LOVE what I'm doing what I've been passionate about for so long yet I am going slightly mental that I am constantly going at it all the time. I finish one job and start the other and sometimes do three at once - oh well, I spent a year and a half bopping about doing jack shit...



So, Brighton Fashion Week is very soon...about a month away now! How bloody mental is that? I'm rather excited though! I went over on last Thursday to see everyone and meet the new street style photographer and a couple of bloggers that I hadn't met yet and everyone is just so lovely, such a nice feeling to know what you're doing is appreciated - the Ready to Wear show is the main one that I am working on at the moment and it will be on the 4th June at the Corn Exchange featuring Premier Model Management, yes, they did make that Channel 4 show called 'The Model Agency' should be good - you can buy your tickets here and check out the Facebook event here...There are talks from experts (no one is 100% confirmed yet but it will be VERY awesome when/if they are!!!), make overs, things with Nando's happening and loads of other great things.


Street Casuals lookbook is coming out soon, seen some proofs and looks amazing!!! I was very lucky to receive an amazing Dr. Denim shirt and Alkr macbook cover as well.




Went on a lovely 8 mile walk with Katie last Monday. I've said this before I know I'm not fat but I don't think it hurts to shed another stone (lost one since January) I'm not sure if I'm feeling like this because I seem to be constantly around media stories and gorgeous people at the moment so I feel like I want to 'fit in' as this hasn't really ever bothered me or anyone I've been involved with before. I think what it annoying me the most is having this amazing dress that I bought a year ago that was perfecto on my to having it be a bit tight now...probably a bit pathetic as everyone is always gaining through out the year but still, annoying! So ideally another stone would be great. I'm aiming by July to have this whipped down...Kinda makes me a bit sad that I've become so conscious over something that never really bothered me...yet, in the long run I think it would be better for me. I've built up a healthy relationship with belvita biscuits for breakfast, milk, salads, green tea, nettle tea, fruit tea, snack a jacks but if I want that bitchin' bag of onion rings (I hate you Ben Loom) then I will totally dive into that, it's getting that balance of eating what you want but in proportion and exercising it through...



I did such an impulse buy yesterday and bought Snoop Dogg tickets, Can you believe it?! He's playing Brighton Dome next Sunday. So so so excited! It's going to be amazing.




I bought some mad shoes, fucking love them and a white rabbit print - time time WHO'S GOT THE TIMEEEE.







Pictures:


Diet of Ham Salad, Belvita's, Water and Green tea...


Only just got round to reading this, great for inspiration.





Before I went for a meeting with Brighton Fashion Week lovelies - rolling home at 5am after going to Audio....that wasn't planned.
Work by the amazing Eliza Rose Moore who I interviewed for Deer Brains.



Before Katie's Birthday BBQ.



Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Birthdays, Parties, Work, Shoes...

So the past couple of weeks have been pretty hectic - with four Birthday's to celebrate, Mother's day, coping with the fact that my Mother is now on Facebook, I know right?! Holding down a competition for BFW with Beauty UK again - good times. Love those guys always so lovely and attentive, as well as holding one down with Street Casuals and Drop Out UK.

I've bought myself a Canon which I'm in love with - since I was 14 all I wanted was a macbook and a good camera now I've got both and I'm SO happy. Rory is a nightmare though and keeps barking when I take pictures.



Models Own - Baby Bloo and a painful cut on my index finger :(



I love this t-shirt and so glad I bought it before the store closed. Reminds me of the Suicide File song - Things fall apart and reminds me that yes, things DO fall apart but you know, stay strong, beautiful and hold your own...x

Now, I've never been the one to invest in loads of shoes, t-shirts and dresses were more my thing but I have fallen in love with many a pair and will be purchasing when my $$$ enters my bank account which is naughty because I'm supposed to be saving but I can't live in brogues and boots forever can I?

So here are a range from Topshop and F-Troupe...Check out the Superga's that I want here too.










Weekly pictures -







Models Own - Smash Up!